December 2009
11 posts
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My mind will kill me if I let it roam unoccupied.
Forget you
And your guy like attributes.
I am going
Crazy.
Silly.
To think eleven days could open my eyes to so much.
I am drawn to you. It’s more than a physical attraction. It’s as if some higher power is pushing me towards you. I know it seems silly due to the short time we spent together, but I want you.
The hardest thing is knowing and understanding the bond you have to her. Knowing the power of love, even if it is one sided. It is not...
Prior.
I am not proud of my past, but neither am I ashamed. I was carefree. I made a promise to myself to change. To have more meaning behind my actions. I beleive I have kept to that. I will share my past if you pass no judgements and take me for who I am now, and appreciate my honesty. You are the only thing I want…promise. I would never do anything to hurt you.
This is not
About me trying to get you back. Although i would have you back in a heartbeat. This is about me needing to know what you’re thinking. I deserve a reason for your actions. I deserve an explination. This is too hard for me to take with just guessing.
Caley
The thoughts of her had to have been in your mind long before we were dating. They didn’t just magically appear in your mind today. I know what you’re going through, I’ve been there, and still am there. I wish we could talk through it, and help each other. They hurt us before, they will do it again, we just choose to believe they won’t because of the love we have for them....
She.
Makes me happy.
She is here to give me joy.
I am in like:]
We were great together
It’s just, sometimes people don’t make it.
We both cried.
I gave everything I had to a boy who changed his mind.
Unfortunately I don’t think I will find love again, and even if it finds me I will run from it.
I fear affection.
I go with wrong guys to protect myself.
I end up hurting still.
But not as bad.
So it’s good right?
I’m beginning to think not..
Damn.